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5/18/2009

Insomnia again

     I used to hang out with different guys, but, it will never happen sth with them, because i know they are not the Mr. Right for me.
    People always say i like hovering around, or i am a playgirl. Honestly, i am just a little woman, who want to give an exclusive devotion to a man. Unfortunately, the guy over there doesn't know.
    During the relationship, the side who pays more, not means he/she is a failure. It will never be a useless thing if you treat your lover with ture and whole heart, at least, after serveral years, the one who suffer from what happened and suddenly burst into tear, definitely not you...
    There is a small knot indeep of me, i cna't move on, i can't give it up, i don't know whether i can trust..
   
12/27/2008

I Care About You

  I'm thinking about you.
 I care what happens to you.
I want to share your sorrows
and sing your joys.
I'm here to talk
whenever you need me.
Always remember
how important you are to me.
Know that you are loved.
Have a bright, beaming,
bette-than-average day!
12/12/2008

Lord's prayer

Our Father, which art in Heaven
Hallowed be thy Name
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done, in earth as it is in heaven
Give us this day our daily bread
And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive them that trespass against us
And lead us not into temptation
But deliver us from evil
For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever and ever.
Amen
11/17/2008

Wordsworth's poem

Ode On Intimations Of Immortality
 
 
What though the radiance which was once so bright
Be now for ever taken from my sight,
Though nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendour in the grass, of glory in the flower;
We will grieve not, rather find
Strength in what remails behind;
In the primal sympathy
Which having been must ever be;
In the soothing thoughts that spring
Out of human suffering;
In the faith that looks through death,
In years that bring the philosophic mind.
10/27/2008

Secrets

     Of course I have secrets.
    Of course I do. Everyone has a few secrets. It's completely normal. I'm sure I don't have any more than anybody else.
    I'm not talking about big, earth-shattering secrets. Not the-presidnt-is-planning-to-bomb-Japan-and-only-Will-Smith-can-save-the-world type secrets. Just normal, everyday little secrets.
10/23/2008

勾人新招

    现在我决定啦,下次再出去见人的时候,人家问,我就说,“
   ”西西,不好意思,我听不懂,我不会英文。“
   ”哦,做饭?我不会哎,最多煎个鸡蛋。“
    对的,就是要装做五体不勤,四体不劳的样子。
    汗死,真不知道为什么现在这样的女生对男人来说都很受用?!ThinkingSarcastic 独立一点不好吗?
10/20/2008

Secondary credit market crisis

    有一天,一位其貌不扬的男士,带着一位十分艳丽的OL,来到CAUSEWAY BAY一家LV店。他为OL选了一价值6万5的LV HANDBAG。付款时,男士掏出支票本,十分潇洒地签了张支票。店员有些为难,因为这对夫妇是第一次来店里购物。
    男士看穿了店员的心思,十分冷静地对店员说:“我感觉到,您担心这是一张空头支票,对吗?今天是周六,银行关门。我建议您把支票和包包都留下。等到周一支票兑现后,再请你们把HANDBAG送到这位小姐的府上。您看这样行不行?”
    店员放了下心来,欣然地接受了这个建议,并且大方的承诺,递送HANDBAG的费用由该店承担,他本人将会亲自把这件事办妥。
    星期一,店员拿着支票去银行入帐,支票果真是空头支票!愤怒的电源打电话给那位顾客,客户对他说:“这没有什么要紧的啊!你和我都没有损失。上周六的晚上,我已经同那个女孩子上床了!哦,多谢您的合作。”
    这个故事揭示了次贷危机(secondary credit market crisis)的本质。人们在对未来收益充满良好预期的时候,对于可能加大风险缺乏防范意识。美女认为周一6万多的LV就会到家了,自然也就放松了警惕,认为ONS的投资是值得的,对于投入产出的预期是建立在一个具有巨大不确定风险的情况下的。而对未来收益预期的包装则是这些投资机构最擅长的事情。不管是股民,尝试投资的人还是为了某些利益的女孩子,他们和故事中的女孩子的一样,所以亏钱基本上是活该,没有这些人,股市赚谁的钱呢,男人们赚谁的便宜呢。而媒体和分析家们或是路人甲,往往在其中扮演了LV店员的配合角色。

Confused

     经常会和不同的人见面,可是什么也不会发生,因为完全不是我要的那一个。
    人们经常会说我总是在徘徊,很花心,
    其实我很专,只是专的那个人他不知道。。。
 
    Valentino对“奢侈”的解读是:今日的奢侈,是过适合自己的生活,被所爱的人包围,享受你想要的舒适,拥有一个值得珍爱的家。
10/16/2008

Fucked up

     感情之中,付出多的一方,不一定就是失败的一方。而一个人对另外一个人好,永远不会白费。至少,若干年之后,耿耿于怀,突然泪流满面的那个人,肯定不是你。That doesn't mean I always have negative idea, maybe just I know everything, I can see everything clearly, but the problem i can't do that, still act negetive. There is a small knot indeep of me, I can't move on, I can't give it up.
                                                                                                                    
 
      
10/13/2008

Forget about it

    I'm thinking about to make a party for my birthday, several friends asked for it. But latest 2years party just gave me bad memory, cuz my birthday is the Halloween, and my friends think all kind of pubs have event about Halloween, so must be fun to have party in pub. We went to pub, and it was so passionate and excited, my friends totally forgot me, and just party party party.
 
    Another reason I am hesitating to make party is, not all friends have time in the same time, and I don't know who I should invite, or I have to meet them one by one? That's pretty weird. Somebody I care can't come to my party just let me down. We have our own world, sometimes can't understand other people's behavior, but depends whether it's important to you.
 
    When I just met him, I felt I am a kid, but just half year past, I feel I am already old enough, old indeep. Don't always say you think my mental age just like teenagers. That's because sometimes i am so easy and outgoing in front you, but most of time i can be so quiet and silence, with desperated feeling..just you never know, and never try to understand. Forget about it.

    I don't know why, usually like to make poker face in front of people. Especially when I am in an embarrassed situation, or I heard something really make me down, hurt me, feel sad. I can't let others figure out it, can't let them know how my feel is, the only way I can do is pretend nothing happened, or make stone face or laughing try to act like an innocent child.
 
   Another way I can do is, say something so rude, sarcastic, my mood is like verjuice. Well, I try to let others can't withstand that. It's bad, I vinly attempt, pretent I get nothing, but finally I know, one day I'll destroyed by these stuff.
 
   Oh, forget about it~
 
 
   
   

10/4/2008

My Astrology today

      Judy, You are in love with love today.
    The air is full of romantic, sexy possibilities.
    You love nothing more than to find someone to talk to and you could be up all night in deep,
    Passionate and intriguing conversation with someone special..
    讽刺 I'm not sure, actually i was sleeping and eating all day at home,and alone. Does that mean i should go out for party tonight? Someone wanna go to the Bund 1, but i really don't have any common to talk with her, really odd person. I don't believe this kinda of thing now, and also don't wanna take a risk to meet someone in club. Met R already enough天使....
8/27/2008

The Catcher in the Rye

      J. D. Salinger said, "And I'm standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff --- I mean if they're running and they don't look where they're going. I have to come out from somewhere and catch them. That's all I'd do all day. I'd just be the catcher in the rye and all."
8/23/2008

My Horoscope today

    Judy, Nothing will be accomplished by rushing through the task at hand.
    Get over your past pain and you will be on the road to a new lifestyle.
    Keep old demons from haunting you any longer.
    Do not let the moodiness of a friend ruin the good time you are having.
    Damn fucking exactly.....
8/14/2008

what's soul mate?

    "Hey, Judy, i will get marry next month.."
    "Congratulations, so that person should be your soul mate,rite?"
    "I'm not sure, sometimes i don't think i can tell her the thing so deep in my mind?"
    "Oh, i get it. You don't know whether she can be your soul mate, but you are going to marry her? That's not fair. or you couldn't find anything better than this you can do.."
    "I don't even know what a soul mate is, do you?"
    "I think, the person who makes you be the most "you" that you could possibly be."
    "But sometimes i doubt it, and maybe i changed a bit for her, but that's not smooth."
    "Yeah, maybe your soul mate is the person who forces your soul to grow the most. Not all growth feel good, you may feel stress or realize something special. You wanna avoid it, ignore it, but actually you still know she is important to you. That called soul mate...."
8/10/2008

Tired

    Great, it's my 3rd time forgot take keys,and lock myself outside..This morning when i got up already 8,Jam went out to learn driving, then I  wanna go out to buy something for breakfast. Just downstairs, I feel something strange, yeah, i forgot to take my keys again~
    What the hell, Jam only can come back after 12:30, and i only has a little cash, no mobile no money, i didn't remember anyone's number, but my parent's and Roland's. I know i can't call them, my parents are not in shanghai, they can't help me, Roland need his own space, i also don't wanna bother him again...I know some friend's address,but i was not sure whether they are at home, especially it's weekend, they should with their guys....So finally i sat on the stairs, waiting for Jam, till 1pm, sweating and  feel anoxic. Oh,btw, it was rainy, so bad weather...
   This week really feel gloomy, usually think too much, and feel upset..Sometimes i feel i have borderline personality disorder, I can be nervous, think sth crazy, make me feel bad and kinda of mental disservice..Bloody hell~~Graeme said he understand my feeling, he is a bit worried about it, but he also cannot do anything. What i did just i deserve. Only live for myself, take care myself. I don't think i can expect anyone or anything now. When i met some troubles or problem, i can't share with others, or complain, best way is try to solve them by myself. It's meaningless to let others know, they can't help you, they can't do that for you..They are just liar...
7/24/2008

无语

    小店里有卖煎蛋的小锅,各种图案,什么多拉A梦、维尼熊, 貌似很可爱
    我买了维尼熊的,心想,以后吃早餐的话,看着小熊的头像,应该更有心情的
    结果,结果,我发现了一个问题
    煎出来的蛋是黄色的,而且根本看不出来是个熊的头像,
    反而更象格格巫~~后悔。。。
7/17/2008

Just believe myself

    I always think girls should be independence enough, especially when they meet some trouble and try to solve them.
    Well, I can be sensitive and nervous almost time, but when i meet trouble, i don't believe others, or especially guys. What they can do? Only can say, oh poor baby~~ or don't worry, try to ask somebody... So they will not come to help you, or even they can come, that kind of problem they also don't know how to fix.
    So, usually, I fix toilet by myself, I went to IKEA to buy furniture and find workers to delivery, and I also like fix them together at home. The electrical system broke, I know it's helpless to call guys, then i only call the power company asked them to send someone, come to repair. I never expect guys can do sth for me, but nothing about trust....
    In this kind of realistic society, better we only believe ourselves, and love ourselves, then others can respect you. Try to fix some problem is not really difficult than you thought. If really can't solve, also can ask professional to come.
    Friends can be nice for company, or share something, but i don't really like to ask them to help me. I want to be indepence, 'cause I always alone......
6/30/2008

Sex and the City

   Finally finished the movie "SEX AND THE CITY", totally have no feeling, except Samantha's words can make us laugh for a while. But i remember 3 things..
   1. Vivienne Westwood's wedding dress
   2. Carrie's so strong arms
   3. 4 ladies gather together,and screaming.
   In fact, i prefer Charlotte's life, so peaceful and happiness...


6/24/2008

Are Men Necessary?

    Are men necessary? Are men afraid of smart, successful women? WHy did feminism fizzle? Why are so many of today's women freezing their faces and emotions in an orgy of plasticity? Is "having it all" just a cruel hoax?
    Some girls are witty and wide-ranging to think about it, they look at the state of the sexual union, rasing bold questions and examining everything from economics and politics to pop culture and the "why?" of the Y chromosome, which has been shedding genes over evolutionary time, may disppear entirely within the next ten million years, a hypothesis countered by newer studies showing that the Y of the human species has been stable for the past six million years. Neither development, of course, has any bearing on the coupling opportunities for humankind as we know it.
    For men. Friends and more, past, present and future. You know who you are.
    Probably women's question addresses the confusion of postfeminist dating, gender conflicts in the workplace, the media's disparate treatment of men and women, the global culture's saturation with sexual imagery, our collective obsession with youth and appearances, the objectification of women by men and , finally sex as "a tripwire in history."
    I am not totally agree with these opinion, but it's fun to know these ideas^^ In today's sexual politics, are women equal--- and are men even needed? When sexes Collide.
    Yiyi said," I don't even understand what I don't understand about men. They're a most inscrutable bunch, really."
    Shirley said," I had a moment of dazzling clarity when I was 27, a rush of confidence that I had cracked the code. But it was, alas, an illusion." "I think I overcomplicated their simplicity. Or oversimplified their simplicity. Are they as complicated as a pile of wood? Or as simple as a squid?"
    I was loath to accept the premise of Jerry Seinfeld, who claims that "men are really nothing more than extremely advanced dogs" who want the same thing from their women that they want from their underwear:" A little bit of support and a little bit of freedom." Maybe just sometimes we are too mature, just being OLD WORLD, like a poem said:
By the time you're his,
Shivering and sighing,
And he vows his passion is
Infinite, undying---
Lady, make a note of this:
One of you is lying.
6/20/2008

desprated girls?

    Actually these days we always talk about relationship with suppliers assistant, then we found an interesting problem, except one girl in Nanjing will get marry this August, others are all singal.. What happened to us? They said the male and female rate in shenzhen is 1:7, that means guy is so popular there, ok, we accept it, but how is north or east, people in Qingdao or Shanghai or Hangzhou, all said it's hard to find a guy....totally no idea. Or are we picky? I don't think so....Everyday Jenny and I stay in the office and shout, where is the guy?
 
    This noon, seems like it's a good day, hot and a lil sun shine..then my co-worker decided to go out for a walk.
    Jenny and I went to TIME SQUARE to check some new style of ZARA, the most popular skirt are all same style--- long enough till ankle, so you should be so slim and tall enough...ok, the height we can't change, but maybe lose weight is possible...err, the question is coming, where is the power to keep the shape? Then we made joke, find a guy, and get power to keep shape and energy...hengheng, the old problem back again!
 
    One more thing i don't understand is, sometimes girls can gather together,talk and gossipe, seems like they know each other for years, Why? For examle, i joined Luana's bday party last Friday, Veit's gf, Matteo's gf and Max's gf sat together, talking and laughing,  I heard what they talked about---their boyfriends and their relationship. Yeah, that's weird, girls' topic always about guys or their boyfriends, then they think you are not dangerous, or can be trust you? How tragical...
 
    Ok, I don't care, I'm tired about these silly and usually can get nervous things. Why always need a guy, for company? or for some needs? We still can live so well without a man, be independent, be smart, be confident...
5/22/2008

Business Trip

    Just back from business trip in Guangzhou and Shenzhen. When the flight assistant said the plane nearly arrived Shanghai, my boss and I feel so happy, finally we are back. Compare to Guangzhou and Shenzhen, we think Shanghai is better, though the air is also dirty, and too many people, but at least, it's better than GZ and SZ. I am so surprised, in GZ,everything is small, the taxi, only can put one suitcase in the boot, at last we have to take 2taxi; the elevator is also small, only can stand 8 person; the apartment. Shenzhen is much better than GZ, but still not so convinent like Shanghai, in SH,u can easily find sth you want, but in GZ and SZ, you can't.  The only good thing is, the food is great. My boss and I ate a lot seafood, both of us are the fan of seafood...lol^^
    The bad thing is, the air is bad,and also muggy, then my right eye got allergy, totally red, looks like a rabbit, but rabbit is red of both eyes, maybe i look like Husky,cuz it has 2different color eyes....kidding..these days only can wear glasses, no contact lenses..so ugly, like a bird :S
    Back, i think maybe it's my style, i always prefer to be busy all the time, now this business trip let me feel it. Always busy, in the meeting all the time, usually eat late, or no time to eat. I only stay there for 4days, but lost 2KG..Umm....it's a good way to keep shape^^
    I enjoy this business trip..this time the big boss of Italy also came with us, we have to choose some new style for next summer, then the boss said my feet is nice, thin, and let me try a lot of shoes he is interested in.. I love this job..so enjoyable!  And i just learn a word about feet..European fitting/ American fitting...sounds odd...
4/17/2008

sensitive political but dont be brainwashed---转载

      Love Europe love China but hate brainwashed people..This is a cyber friend wrote in his MSN title..Lot’s of my friends whom are on my msn list changed their signs as Love China. That’s not a big deal. But I changed it or not, is it your business? Just because you change your signs, will it really mean you love china from your deep heart? I doubt it, so ridiculous. 3 years ago, lots of people had been brainwashed like today, but they did more stupid things and didn’t even think about what they did bring. Somebody went to jaill including a teacher of my gf's university.
      I always know that, what the medias said is just probably 85% is totally right.We have to judge them by ourselves.Don’t let medias even the politics to control you. Sometimes we just saw the half, not the whole thing. When others look down on you, that means you have been in the down situation. The only way we can do is to improve ourselves. Change our own situation is much more important than fight or hit others to shut others mouths.
      Do what we can do, let others say what they want to say. When one day others see your mightiness, they will choose to stay, if they still want to leave. Let them go, it’s their right.
      Human Right.
 
      Here below is something I read in the net.
      西方国家这次为什么会如此的团结?欧洲的德国、法国,一般是不会冒着这样的风险得罪中国这个经济大国的。伊拉克战争时德国和法国都和中国站在一边,不支持美国对伊动武。为伊拉克而得罪美国,不符合他们的国家利益啊。法国10年前为了不得罪中国,终止了对台军售,损失了几十亿的收入。而为什么今天会冒着这么大的风险公然与中国为敌?难道就是为了和自己根本不相干的西藏和奥运?
      而另一个值得让人思考的问题是,一向是西方老大的美国,为什么这一次这么低调?让英、法、德在前台唱主角?对于西藏,西方国家很清楚,再怎么闹,中国也不可能做出让步。对于奥运,他们也很清楚,就算西方国家没有一个领导人出席北京奥运,中国也就是面子上过不去罢了,对中国有实质影响吗?没有。
      所以,西藏只是一个幌子,奥运也只是一个幌子。那么他们到底想从中国得到什么?
      西方国家正面临着10年来经济陷入衰退的危险,他们需要有一个有实力的国家为这次西方经济的衰退买单。不言而喻,他们不约而同的想到了中国。做为一个普通老百姓,我对国际经济没有什么研究,但2008年一开始我还是隐约到中国经济面临的危险,现在也就想到了温家宝总理说过的一句话:2008年也许是中国经济最困难的一年。现在想起正在进行的这场闹剧,真的有点让人毛骨悚然了。美国不是低调,是很冷静,他们早已经不露声色的出招了:
      1。美元贬值。因为美元贬值,人民币升值,中国16000亿美元的外汇储备已经人间蒸发了3000亿,而且还在继续蒸发中。更要命的是,由于人民币升值,中国出口产品成本增加,沉重的打击中国的出口,许多企业面临倒闭的危险。因为中国企业的倒闭,西方国家生产企业就可以开始生产复苏。
      2。通过高油价以拖垮中国经济。中国经济的高速发展需要大量的进口原油,而西方国家不断的提高石油储备,造成高油价一直持续,以增加中国经济建设的成本。这就是美国为什么要打伊拉克、打伊朗的原因:控制石油就是了经济命脉。
      3。助长中国金融泡沫。人民币升值,大量热钱自然要涌入中国,造成中国高成本,高币值的经济泡沫。或许这就是为什么政府就算是背着千夫所指都决不救市的原因,就是为了打击国际投资在中国的恶意圈钱行为,而另一方面却不得不面对成千上万痛不欲生的股民的唾骂而有可能造成国内社会动荡的危险。现在看来,什么西藏事件,抵制奥运都是不足为道的事。
      所以,“西藏”和“奥运”只是西方国家绑架的两个人质,他们真正的目的不是西藏,也不是奥运,而是以此为要挟,要中国为他们的经济衰退买单。不买单,搞乱你,要死大家一起死。买单,坐下来谈,你答应我我就息事宁人!
      中国政府的冷静是对的,死死抓住经济建设这个中心不动摇才是关键。经济如果一垮,那就什么都垮了。国民要冷静,要相互理解,不要给政府出难题。还是那句话:发展才是硬道理,压倒一切的是稳定。一个普通的中国人都能预料到,我相信政府能从容应对。我们要支持政府打赢这场表面上看起来是舆论战,而事实上是经济的战争。
      我们需要更团结,希望大家奔走先告
      1、多省油  多乘坐公共交通出行  能做车就不要开车 能开窗户就不要开空调
      2、多省电  路灯不用就关掉, 能用耳机就不要开音箱,家电不用就要把整个开关拔下 来 又省电又安全 希望政府把夜景工程的灯光就关掉 
      3、支持国货 能买到国货就不要买外国货 促进内需 钱要给自己人赚  
      4、努力工作 多开发和制造更好的产品  实业才是救国之本
      5、尊重自己 尊重国人 不要崇洋媚外 
      6、告诉台湾 西藏 包括其他民族的青年为什么我们现在还这么痛苦,别的国家看不起 ,因为我们的祖辈太喜欢窝里斗。 
      7、告诉身边的每一个人 中国只有强大才会有更好的家 ,落后就要挨打挨骂 
      8、政府在进步 督促政府更快的进步 而不是推到他 那样高兴的是美日 痛苦的是自己
4/10/2008

Is It Important_

    Does your partner ever asked
how you feel about him?
    If he does,
that's a warning that you are not shwoing to him
 how special he is to you.
    If you do not nurture a loving relationship,
you could just let a "good thing" slip your fingers.
    Try these easy, yet inexpensive ways
 to show him that you really care,
   and see,
how much love you will receive in return.
3/26/2008

La Pasion

     Love is wonderful, people feel sweet and passionate when they fall in love. But why they have this feeling?
    According to the British "Guardian" reported on 5th,Dec. Scientists recently devoted to the tracking of such animals to study their brain and the behavior of their love with the demise of a process, the results of the two scholars after found that when male and female voles after mating, both of them will be loyal to the life and relationship, whenever this time, mating voles will release a lot of brain dopamine--- called "feel good" chemicals.
    We usually called that dopamine as"poisons of love". When they injected into these chemicals to the make voles brain, who have never been mating, it was found that these small guys immediately give up the pursuit of other female voles, but wholeheartedly want to be hanging around that female vole which one he fall in love at the beginning. It's the same theory to human being.
    But the point is, most of time, we can't be loyal to only one all the time, so what's the problem? It is--- dopamine is a substance from tyrosine metabolism, the brain neurotransmitter, is a sentimental people's material. Another hand, we also secret posterior lobe oxytocin in the meantime. Dopamine and oxytocin's secretory proportion gives affair a reasonable explanation. Some people always secret dopamine but refuse oxytocin-secreting, then they always fall in love with different people. The thing in their brain called phenylethylamine, it's small but really important, can let them fully immersed themselves in the happiness of passionate.
    In the brain, we called love as chemical cocktail. Means, when you be together for long, then the body will produce anti-bodies for these three substances, especially phenylethylamine level is gradually declining. After this, or men and women should be separated, or have affair. That's why 30/40-year-old people's marriage is frail and weak. In other words, that chemial maybe more important than spirit and love.
    Now I totally understand why R can be a really good lover. Perhaps he only secrets dopamine but no anti-body. He always change girls, doesn't wanna get into any relationship, then can keep the fresh feeling and high level phenylethylamine.
    My question is, when the situation changed, time passed, no passion anymore, what should we do? Keep hunting, or take an injection to get more dopamine?
   
   
3/25/2008

It Is Girls' Things

    Peple said, one of the best things about being in a great relationship is feeling comfortable enough to leave it for several days. Then we can find the feeling will be more stronger. I can't tell, I just try to control myself not miss someone, it's better to not let others know your feeling especially in this too realistic world.
    A girl called Daisy just left me a msg, asked whether there is any possible that can start a relationship after one night stand. Sweetie, that's possible. Some people especially foreigners think it's better to try sex at the beginning, then will figure out whether you two match or not. Someone prefer that, but not my style. Usually can give guys a sign, that you are not only open minded, you are also easy, too easy probably... DAMN...That thought makes me exhausted...
 
    It's hard to eat just organic all the time. Last night, I could not stop thinking about a Big Mac. Really hope my body can be always amazing. I'm having nude or any sexy photographs taken in spring or summer. "Are you going to hand them out to prospective dates?" Jonathan laugh at me so loudly. Jonathan is a cute boyfriend of mone, I mean B-O-Y friend, I used turn "boyfriend" loosly as Jonathan is clearly a homeosexual.
    This is not about a man's approval. This photo is just for me. When I'm old, I can look at it and say, "Damn, I was so hot." Isn't that narcissistic?
 
    Guys always masturbate, 'cause they need that, and from the medical way, they should do that three times a week. Sounds so crazy, huh? I know most of guys imagine some sexy hot girls when they do that. I don't know whether girls also do that, well, I DIDN'T. Maybe I feel a bit embarrassed. But we can talk about that. When some girls gathered together this noon, we discussed that IF we have masturbate, what kind guy we will imagine. We can masturbate to whomever we like. It's imagination. It's fun and perfectly healthy.
    "Who do you all fantasies about?" Richard asked me.
    "George Clooney and Hugh Jackman." I replied. Yeah! We laughed and handclap. It's amazing, they are like a Chanel suit, will always be in style. How sexy are they!
    Now I just found, even old men, they still have fantasies probably. An old man lives in another building in my community, every morning when I take Loopy out for a walk, and then I can see him, sitting on a bench, keep looking those elder ladies dancing and doing exercises. So weird, I can't believe it, he can sitting there for 1 or 2 hours, just keep looking. God, that kind of NEED is for everybody!
 
    Girls are always interested in any kind of topic, that's us! 'Cause we are growing up, we need to know more about life, men and sex, to learn more about relationship...