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2009/8/12 At the heart of the image 佛曰：世事无相，相由心生，可见之物，实为非物，可感之事，实为非事。物事皆空，实为心瘴，俗人之心，处处皆狱，惟有化世，堪为无我。我即为世，世即为我。
著名的日本相机厂商尼康（Nikon）的宣传口号也是“相由心生”—At the heart of the image，则是另外一种演绎了。
so what do u care? The height, whether he is goodlooking, or sth inside, his personality? 2009/5/18 Insomnia again I used to hang out with different guys, but, it will never happen sth with them, because i know they are not the Mr. Right for me.
People always say i like hovering around, or i am a playgirl. Honestly, i am just a little woman, who want to give an exclusive devotion to a man. Unfortunately, the guy over there doesn't know.
During the relationship, the side who pays more, not means he/she is a failure. It will never be a useless thing if you treat your lover with ture and whole heart, at least, after serveral years, the one who suffer from what happened and suddenly burst into tear, definitely not you...
There is a small knot indeep of me, i cna't move on, i can't give it up, i don't know whether i can trust..
2008/8/23 My Horoscope today Judy, Nothing will be accomplished by rushing through the task at hand.
Get over your past pain and you will be on the road to a new lifestyle.
Keep old demons from haunting you any longer.
Do not let the moodiness of a friend ruin the good time you are having.
Damn fucking exactly..... 2008/7/17 Just believe myself I always think girls should be independence enough, especially when they meet some trouble and try to solve them.
Well, I can be sensitive and nervous almost time, but when i meet trouble, i don't believe others, or especially guys. What they can do? Only can say, oh poor baby~~ or don't worry, try to ask somebody... So they will not come to help you, or even they can come, that kind of problem they also don't know how to fix.
So, usually, I fix toilet by myself, I went to IKEA to buy furniture and find workers to delivery, and I also like fix them together at home. The electrical system broke, I know it's helpless to call guys, then i only call the power company asked them to send someone, come to repair. I never expect guys can do sth for me, but nothing about trust....
In this kind of realistic society, better we only believe ourselves, and love ourselves, then others can respect you. Try to fix some problem is not really difficult than you thought. If really can't solve, also can ask professional to come.
Friends can be nice for company, or share something, but i don't really like to ask them to help me. I want to be indepence, 'cause I always alone...... 2008/3/17 SmellMaybe I am an odd girl
I am so sensitive about every kind of smell
When I with someone
I easily can recognize what parfume they use
They were pretty surprised
This morning I was on the way to the office
Just passed an old lady
I noticed really special smell
That's from death
Totally different
Life is so short
Death is so easy
No idea 2008/2/7 Philosophy "Philosopy appears to some people as a homogenous milieu: there thoughts are born and die, there systems are built, and there, in turn, they collapse. Others take Philosophy for a specific attitude which we can freely adopt at will. Still others see it as a determined segment of culture. In our view Philosophy does not exist."
Today I read something about Jean Pail Sartre. I tried to know him.
"The bad novel aims to please by flattering, whereas the good one is an exigence and an act of faith. But above all, the unique point of view from which the author can present the world to those freedoms whose concurrence he wishes to bring about is that of a world to be impregnated always with more freedom."
Sartre was never a member of Communist party, although he tried to reconcile existentialism and Marxism and collaborated with the French Communist Party. When Albert Camus with whom Sartre was closely linked in the 1940, openly criticized Stalinism, Sartre hesitated to follow his example. The publication of Camus's novel THE REBEL in 1951 caused a break between the two friends.
"Man can will nothing unless he has first understood that he must count no one but himself: that he is alone, abandoned on earth in the midst of his infinite responsibilities, without help, with no other aim than the one he sets himself, with no other destiny than the one he forges for himself on this earth."
Sartre's first novel, LA NAUSÉE (1938), expressed under the influence of German philosopher Edmund Husserl's phenomenological method, that human life has no purpose.
2007/12/27 狗狗对我说的话1。 我的生命可能只有十至十五年。我怎样离开你都会令我很痛苦。你要在买下我之前紧记。
2。 你要给我一点时间去明白你对我的要求。
3。 你要信赖我---这对我的幸福是很重要的。
4。 你不要时常对我生气和不要禁闭我来惩罚我。你有工作、娱乐及朋友，而我却只有你。
5。 你要时常对我说话。即使我不懂你的语言，我也可以明白你的语气。
6。 你要知道无论你怎样对我，我是永远不会忘记的。
7。 在你打我之前要紧记，我的牙齿可以咬伤你的手，但是我没有这样做。
8。 在你骂我不合作、非常固执或者懒惰之前，反问自己这是否因为我有其他烦恼。我可能得不到合适的事物、在阳光下逗留时间太长又或者我的心脏已经越来越老化和虚弱。
9。 当我年老的时候，你要照顾我，因为你也是会老的。
10。当我要捱国最辛苦的历程，千万不可以说：“我不忍心看他。”或者“让我不在场时发生”如果你在我身边，我对每一件事情都会更加容易接受。你永远不要忘记，我爱你~~~~~~~ 2007/10/30 无题幽幽歲月，浮生來回。 屏風惹，夕陽斜。 一半花謝，一半在想誰。 Tmr is my bday, but I really have no mood to celebrate it, don't know why, just feel upset. Remember last year, I was so excited, invited lots of friends to join my party in BonBon. But now my mind is blank, what I'm thinking, what I hope, whether that person can understand...I'm getting one year older, thats not important, the point is what i got from the passed time... 昔年移柳，依依汉南。 今看摇落，凄怅江潭。 树犹如此，人何以堪。 Autobiography Ⅲ Childhood, for me, is so beautiful and fantastic.
Every noon, after the lunch, before the studying in the afternoon, I would beseech my grandparents to play cards with me. If I won, they must pay 0.5RMB for the credit. And every end is whoever won the games, they also like gave me a little pocket money to buy an ice cream. At dusk, in the summer after studying days, I would spend it with my buddies. We played the traditional games in China, such as Kick Jianzi, Jump the Rubber Band, Red light Green light and so on. The giggle lingered on between buildings till friends went back home. Sometimes I also sat under the trees with grandma in front of the buildings, counting the stars cross the dense leaves. In summer, I often went swimming with my grandpa or friends, (Neng jiang is just in front of my grandparnts place.) burning my skin under the sun with the jumping water flower around us. In winter, Chinese people had one habit, which they would store some Chinese cabbages in order to supply the vegetables in the frozen weather. My grandparents would be so. Then when they bought the Chinese cabbages, I would help them to carry them up to the 2nd floor, which was my grandparents' home.
My childhood is just like the free bird flying in the wide sky-there is no sadness.
When going to the primary school, I know only studying hard could creative much better life knowing from teacher. So my hard work began at that time. Also, my teacher told us that as a Chinese person, first, we needed to have the ability to write a perfect Chinese chatacters. In China, there is either one putting-we can see the personality through the characters who write. So we started one complete in class. My fond of excelling others was built at that time. But since my limited IQ, and I knew I am not the genius, I was modest in many things. Little by little, I formed the habit which study is the first. But I have the nature of playing. So if I have time, I will go out with friends or just paly the violine at home. In school, I liked to join into many sport movement. In the nature, I am honest and justice, I always cannot bear those unfair things. To be fare, I would quarrel with enemies. Mum always ays my personality is not very good. It will easily lead me into an argument and make others hate me. So when I was young, I was weak and useless, I think, dare not to show my true opinion on the truth. Now, I think, it is stupid. Although it will cause an argument with honest and justice, I need learn to find the better ways to show my opinions, do not be a person who has no self-ideas.
In the middle school, I found my troubles more and more, on the studying or among the relation of others. I found I always quarreled with my best friends, always saw some things I didn't like. But I still had no such courage to show my honest feeling out, just was angry in my heart. Right, cause at that time, i began so fat, had inferiority complex and i don't usually like talking, just keep silence. However, the experiences in the middle school, with the quarrel of my friends, I have obtained the cherished friendship till now. They are letting me feel that they are the best friends who I make and always live in my heart with an import place. It was a real life, not a pleasure. As someone put it, pleasure is an event; happiness is a process. Pleasure is an end point; happiness is the journey. Pleasure is material; happiness is spiritual. Pleasure is self-involved; happiness is outer-and other-involved. That is what my 17-year days to tell me.
Then after the import exams I got in the university, became a freshman. Everything in the collegs was so interesting to me, I can act as so mature but nobody will say anything. The life in the university is cool and busy,cause my major is specical, everyday just fulled by lessons or stayed in the lab. But I found i became more and more open-minded, easy-going, I had lots of friends, and my mind be more mature...
Now I've already graduated, and found a job in Shanghai. Life still going on, but I hope everything will be fine, and works in my way... 2007/10/15 Autobiography Ⅱ My grandma, in my memory, was a wordy house woman, just like many women in their family. She spoke eternally, as if she never ceased to have rest. Just as every time I went out to play with my buddies, she would shouting at me "Be careful and go back early!". And every time I would not do as her telling, just played till the sun face hid to the hills' back. Then the sound of grandma calling would spread into every square air among the buildings. I would abruptly appear from one unknown place, with dusty face running back to home. Like many traditional Chinese women-grandma worked hard and took care of every corner in this family. When Spring Festival was coming, she must wipe the windows. It was one habit of hers that clean the house before the Festival on the last day of one year in lunar calendar. In my childhood memory, I always "worked" with her and my grandma's big sound was also haunting in my mind-"Do not leave a mess here~" And one thing remained fresh in my memory. One day, I was standing on the little wooden stool when my grandma was combing plaits for me. Suddenly I put my head back and asked "You are taller than me, I call you 'Grandma'. Then when I am taller than you, if you could call ME 'Grandma'?" It is really funny that why I thought like that. Then as to know I like eating Chinese Harbin noodle with beaf or lamb,and fried soy sauce in it, which is a kind of old traditional Harbin food, she cooked for me every time I came to visit her. SHe would smile like the sun as I was eating.
Of course my uncle who is my mum's younger brother also treats me very good. He told me that he always took me outside to play so as that his girlfriend, who is now his wife, once thought that I was his daughter when I was a little child. My dad's sisters also consider me seriously. My youngest aunt who is my dad's sister always braided the sweaters for me. Almost every beautiful sweaters in my childhood was creative by my youngerst aunt. Though my mum is pretty good at that. 2007/10/11 Autobiography Ⅰ I am Judy. My Chinese name is Wu Difeier, Wu is my surname. I was born on 31st Oct,1983, in a big city, Harbin. It was a too hot in summer and too cold in winter city. My birth stirred up my whole families- grandpa, grandma, aunts, uncles and so on. My mum told me that I was a pearl when I was just born. It was because there was no kid before me in my grandparents' whole family. So I attracted everyone's sight.
The like to me from grandpa was special. He had never spoken as much as others. He always watched me with silent smile. Sometimes he put me into the little handcart, which only belonged to me, to take me outside to walk. And sometimes he liked to hold me in his arms till I fell asleep, but still no talk. When I could go to the nursery school, I always cried aloud no matter who sent me to. My grandpa didn't send me there. 'Cause he couldn't stand my crying every time and then always took me back home with my triumph ending up. In this way I could stay at home freely, didn't go to nursery school. So the task to send me to the nursery school belonged to my grandma and my mum. As I know, no one could send me into nursery school except them. But grandpa always tool the mission of taking me home when the nersery school closed. The scene, which I groveled on my grandpa shoulder when the drizzle was dropping around us, emerged clearly. At that time I would unfold my little umbrella, prop up one little shelter for my lovely grandpa, with the dropping sound flying around my ears.
2007/9/4 Meditation 每个人在划开青春这道伤口的时候,难免会有清晰的阵痛,每个人在狠狠心抛开青春扬长而去的时候,伤疤依旧盛开着迷人的心血来潮.我想一定是这样,宛如花开不败,只是停留在心灵深处的希翼.说穿了就是不溅泪的一场青春禁忌游戏.
兴许只能用让别人的故事去成就新的上同,绽放另一场无法挽救的辉煌,真的,别无所用.
有些隐痛深埋在心,挂在脸上的笑容永远动人但也暗淡.
是的,总是有些什么给我们的青春岁月留下深深的痕迹. 2007/7/27 爱我，请给我一个简简单单的拥抱 拥抱是距离最近的姿势，彼此亲密无间；
拥抱是距离最远的姿势，看不到对方的表情。
快乐时，拥抱是一种分享；悲伤时，拥抱是依靠和慰籍；寒风中，拥抱是传递温暖；惧怕时，拥抱是充满新蓝和安全感。
拥抱总会带来一个陌生的信息，对于我来说似乎遥远漫长，而不可企及。可是最近却渴望得到一个拥抱，渴望着，一个拥抱，让我得到片刻的停息。
心猛然间被刺痛了，一时的无助，我需要一个拥抱，拥抱哪怕与爱情无关。哪怕只是一个陌生的拥抱，让我停息这无边的伤痛，只要有你的拥抱，我会很平静很平静的面对黑暗与分离，我只要一个拥抱，让寒夜变温暖。别说我太任性，别说我无理取闹，其实我的愿望很简单，只是一个拥抱，如果你愿意，请给我一个拥抱，哪怕是施舍的拥抱。幸福对我来说，只是一个温暖的拥抱，爱我，请给我一个拥抱。
爱情分不清对错，爱情没有理由，莫名的来又莫名的去，一个人过，寂寞已成为习惯，不想再去羡慕别人的幸福，不想再为爱做任何无畏的牺牲，注定没有结果的爱叫我如何去付出如何去等待？我不贪婪，也不幻想，只是爱了，已经没有退路。如果将来有一天，你看到我走的很辛苦，那就请你给我一个拥抱，哪怕那时这个拥抱与爱情已无关。
孤独寂寞的承包，忍受着风吹雨摇，只愿你的一个拥抱可以让我的心不再流浪在天涯海角。只要还存在一丝可以拥抱的理由，就请不要吝啬你的拥抱，只要你的一个拥抱，就可以融化我心里的冰冷。幸福曾经回来过，只是再也与爱情无关，当再也找不到拥抱的理由时，就叫我先抽身而退，就算最后情人难免沦为朋友，也请你给我一个友情的拥抱，微笑在你怀里落泪，拥抱着你说再见。
请给我一个拥抱，让我确定你模糊的爱；给我一个拥抱，让我有勇气忘了哭泣；请给我一个拥抱，很想要你一个拥抱。不要问为什么，一个浅浅的拥抱，哪怕是朋友式的拥抱，让我真实感受到你的温暖。让我记得你的气息。
爱我，请给我一个拥抱，一个简简单单的拥抱。。。。。 2007/6/28 People Come Into Your LIfe For A Reason People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a reason, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that out need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on... 2007/5/5 L'insoutenable légèreté de l'être 不能承受的生命之轻
最沉重的负担压迫着我们，让我们屈服于它，把我们压到地上。但在历代的爱情诗中，女人总渴望承受一个男性身体的重量。于是，最沉重的负担同时也成了最强盛的生命力的影像。负担越重，我们的生命就越贴近大地，它就越真切实在。
相反，当负担完全缺失，人就会变得比空气还轻，就会飘起来，就会远离大地和地上的生命，人也就只是一个半真的存在，其运动也会变得自由而没有意义。 2007/2/17 intricate也许我们的生活和这花儿的照片一样 有的时候很真实，但大部分的时候，确是幻象 不管是Picasso的abstract,还是Monet的impressionism 虚虚实实，真真假假 旋光也好，异构也好 每一种生物的化学式，都会有L- 与R-两种 生活也是如此 can't set anymore details life involves too much uncertainty
2007/2/16 咖啡物语 咖啡是一种旖旎的恋情，馥郁的芬芳飘过鼻息，醇厚的口感在舌间味蕾出久久徘徊，仿佛爱情一般美妙。
每一种咖啡是一种恋情：传统的恋情是维也纳咖啡，奶油、咖啡、砂糖逐步地俘获你的心；柏拉图式的恋情是那不勒斯咖啡，充满清晨阳光的气息，丝丝缕缕地温暖着你的心；甜蜜的恋情是摩卡咖啡，流淌着花纹态的巧克力糖浆弥漫着幸福；若即若离的恋情是土耳其咖啡，充满挑逗与神秘，使人欲罢不能……
亲爱的你，喜欢什么样的咖啡呢。。。。 2006/12/30 我们老的很快，智慧却来的很晚 一年前，Sally说她爱上了一个忧郁的男生，从此不管Sally在上海哪头混，都总会想着那个忧郁男。忧郁青年曾和她一起打拼市场，曾和她一起说着甜蜜的情话，也曾让她一个人在酒吧踉跄着买醉，孤独的归家，伤心的抽泣。
一年后，Katy说，那个认识了26年的男生只说了一句话：Will you marry me?她说，和男人说话时被注视的感觉真TM好，“折腾够了，我也该嫁人了。”下个礼拜就要飞去南半球。
我学会general manager这个词的时候，我说我想做总经理；我第一次拿起话筒站在镜头前，我说我想做主持人。
长大后，我发现我总也搞不清楚卡里的钱是多了还是少了；长大后，我发现我其实不喜欢在陌生人面前说很多话。
大学里，我和Flora窝在床上，看着电影，讲着笑话。大学后，我和一帮陌生人，喝着酒，跳着舞。
我们总说要一起旅行，结果只是毕业去了一次市内游；我们总说要一起唱K，结果只在分开时当了回麦霸；我们总说要一起吃这个吃那个，结果聚餐只在大食代。
那时侯，我总以为自己的这个应酬很重要，那个约会推不掉。现在，我常常想念那种纯纯的快乐，快乐却在天南海北各自飘落。
十六岁，我想一个人购物；
十七岁，我想一个人住；
十八岁，我想背上包去流浪。
曾经多么想挣脱父母的手，曾经多么执著地听他们说东我偏要往西，曾经无数次自信地以为我可以把自己养活。那时侯，我妈常说：“你不听我的是伐？”
现在，老妈还是常说：“你不相信我是伐？”我已经不再反驳这句话。因为这样的赌博，我已经输了太多。
我们老的很快，智慧却来得很晚。
也许今天我们以为的智慧，在明天又要被自己否决。不循环，也许就不是生活。
无论智慧来得再迟，我们都唯有甘之如饴。想到这一句的现在，我还不算太老。是伐？
…………………毕马威的同学请息怒之分界线………………………
有些人，天生释名狂。
经典案例：
画外音：NBC知道不？
X：哦，牛逼company嘛。。。
新案例：
某人：终于进四大鸟！
X：哪家？
某人：毕马威，KPMG
X：哦，坑骗蒙拐事务所嘛。。。。
2006/12/29 C'est La vieEight below
life is frozen
but i know u miss me
Three thousand
we are so far away
but i know u love me
Baby,don't be sad
it's nothing
sleep please,stop sobbing
I'll be with u forever
We all know
life is short,realism is cruel
how is the future?
Who know,whatever
don't worried about carpe diem
don't worried about lead a befuddled life
it's just an attitude
Well,sometimes i have insomnia
what should I do?
I have no idea
sex is a good exercise to relax
but should I?
No,I'm afraid of that
cuz u r not besides me
I always tell myself
stop to hurt u,stop to hurt myself
forgive me baby
I know I'm wilful sometimes
but u always know u r important in my heart
Eight below under water
I can hear ur breath
the bubbles,one by one
like the angel fish kiss
Three thousand high altitude
I can smell ur tears
the drops,one by one
like the melt down vanilla ice cream
Just let us hug tightly
don't breakaway forever
out love is sweet and sore
we all know
just promise to each other
don't hurt u,don't hurt me
treasure ourselves
Eight below
I can feel ur temperature
Three thousand
U can feel my touch
whenever,wherever
Baby,let me stay in ur arms
ever,forever
Have insomnia again,it's already continued three day,don't know why.Just cannot sleep,sometimes i like to daydream,it's not bad,my mind usually blank.Ha,there is a filter in our brains is good,we can forget the bad thing,the sad thing.Though I know actually they r in my heart so deeply....
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